Sunday, February 29, 2004
Who is GOD?
Then the LORD came down in the cloud and stood there with him and proclaimed his name, the Lord. And he passed in front of Moses, proclaiming, "The LORD, the LORD, the compassionate and gracious God, slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness, maintaining love to thousands, and forgiving wickedness, rebellion and sin. Yet he does not leave the guilty unpunished; he punishes the children and their chidren for the sin of the fathers to the third and fourth generation."
- Exodus 34:5-7
Exodus is a beautiul chapter, God reveals so much about Himself to us. How precise and accurate His instructions. How marvelous His works. How just His laws. How intimate and close is He. He hears our pleas and He rains compassion among us. How exciting the plan He has for us, just as He empowered Moses; and His promises endures forever, the covenant He made with His people never will be broken.
Stimulating chapter that arouses the spirit. Receptiveness and sensitiveness touched upon.
Then the LORD came down in the cloud and stood there with him and proclaimed his name, the Lord. And he passed in front of Moses, proclaiming, "The LORD, the LORD, the compassionate and gracious God, slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness, maintaining love to thousands, and forgiving wickedness, rebellion and sin. Yet he does not leave the guilty unpunished; he punishes the children and their chidren for the sin of the fathers to the third and fourth generation."
- Exodus 34:5-7
Exodus is a beautiul chapter, God reveals so much about Himself to us. How precise and accurate His instructions. How marvelous His works. How just His laws. How intimate and close is He. He hears our pleas and He rains compassion among us. How exciting the plan He has for us, just as He empowered Moses; and His promises endures forever, the covenant He made with His people never will be broken.
Stimulating chapter that arouses the spirit. Receptiveness and sensitiveness touched upon.
Haven't found the motivation to blog for a very very long time. Occasionally, I get the urge but the content just dwells down. I've been in the army already for close to 3 months and am about to POP soon in 3 weeks time.
I'm glad I haven't succumbed to wordly influence, and the Lord has driven conviction deep within me and gave me the discerning eye to discriminate between what is of worth and what can be eliminated from my life. Still, I continue experiencing many ups and downs in my spiritual life, but it's still on a gradual rising scale and climbing on.
Even as I reflect more closely and open up more honestly to God, many questions still swell up within me unanswered. But God does reveal His glory and splendor in the Living Word. Then again, I do not understand why some of them even cause me to question on the basis of my own belief. Is this due to doubt or is there wisdom to ponder on and comprehend? Sometimes, I feel a lack of intimacy with God as what I have read of people who has found favor in God.
So many times when I should open up my mouth to proclaim His works but failed to. Past complexities rising up again as I have to resurface and identify the problems. Renewing of the mind, towards God's purpose of course. How do I face up as a Christian? There are some things that are just too difficult to share, especially when everyone goes through different experiences; difficulty in relating. In fact, I always find it hard to say "It is Christ who strengthens me", fear of hypocritism and poor testimony - it's so much easier to quote verse then to speak with authenticity.
When are we ready? Are we ever ready? I remember from a sermon these words of wisdom - Waiting upon the Lord is an active phrase. It requires some action. Even as I encourage others to step up in their faith, I sometimes feel that I myself fail to do so. Talked to Timothy over it.. and realize we don't really have any power to move the spirit of a person, but our sphere of influence only lie on the body and the soul. It is really the Holy Spirit that takes over. So there isn't anything to worry about I guess.
Thus far, reaching almost the end of my BMT days, I should reflect and guage my growth in every aspect.
Well, next week I shall be returning back to acjc to obtain my A level results. Somehow, I feel results don't matter as much as I cared for. Getting into a university would be satisfying. But upon thinking about jc life, I cannot help but recollect the time I spent in obession, talking about undying love... and age of immaturity and adolescence.. how foolish were my thoughts then and self-driven. I cannot help but feel embarass over the whole issue once over again.
Argh.... "what if" questions keep popping up again. Why do I even question when I've surrender my life to Christ, and I'm a new creation? I can't wipe it out but can I ever get over it without having to recount the shameful moments?
Nevertheless, I can't wait to share the joy I've went through this quarter of the year, and catch up with my friends I've longed to meet up with. You know who you are! Then we'll go celebrate, regardless of results.
I'm glad I haven't succumbed to wordly influence, and the Lord has driven conviction deep within me and gave me the discerning eye to discriminate between what is of worth and what can be eliminated from my life. Still, I continue experiencing many ups and downs in my spiritual life, but it's still on a gradual rising scale and climbing on.
Even as I reflect more closely and open up more honestly to God, many questions still swell up within me unanswered. But God does reveal His glory and splendor in the Living Word. Then again, I do not understand why some of them even cause me to question on the basis of my own belief. Is this due to doubt or is there wisdom to ponder on and comprehend? Sometimes, I feel a lack of intimacy with God as what I have read of people who has found favor in God.
So many times when I should open up my mouth to proclaim His works but failed to. Past complexities rising up again as I have to resurface and identify the problems. Renewing of the mind, towards God's purpose of course. How do I face up as a Christian? There are some things that are just too difficult to share, especially when everyone goes through different experiences; difficulty in relating. In fact, I always find it hard to say "It is Christ who strengthens me", fear of hypocritism and poor testimony - it's so much easier to quote verse then to speak with authenticity.
When are we ready? Are we ever ready? I remember from a sermon these words of wisdom - Waiting upon the Lord is an active phrase. It requires some action. Even as I encourage others to step up in their faith, I sometimes feel that I myself fail to do so. Talked to Timothy over it.. and realize we don't really have any power to move the spirit of a person, but our sphere of influence only lie on the body and the soul. It is really the Holy Spirit that takes over. So there isn't anything to worry about I guess.
Thus far, reaching almost the end of my BMT days, I should reflect and guage my growth in every aspect.
Well, next week I shall be returning back to acjc to obtain my A level results. Somehow, I feel results don't matter as much as I cared for. Getting into a university would be satisfying. But upon thinking about jc life, I cannot help but recollect the time I spent in obession, talking about undying love... and age of immaturity and adolescence.. how foolish were my thoughts then and self-driven. I cannot help but feel embarass over the whole issue once over again.
Argh.... "what if" questions keep popping up again. Why do I even question when I've surrender my life to Christ, and I'm a new creation? I can't wipe it out but can I ever get over it without having to recount the shameful moments?
Nevertheless, I can't wait to share the joy I've went through this quarter of the year, and catch up with my friends I've longed to meet up with. You know who you are! Then we'll go celebrate, regardless of results.
